something something, i wonder if i should be making more art and enjoying it, i’m desperate for it, tbh. even when i thought about this earlier, i thought about it like ‘i wonder if i should make more art instead of consuming it’ and by ‘it’ i mean ‘content’ not ‘art’.
aside from the very real reactionary opinions of those who have been writing or making art for a long time especially amdist this insane cultural and economic swing, something feels missing. like of course, someone worked real hard to learn color theory and spent countless hours practicing hand eye brain coordination to draw or render the perfect piece and it’s disheartening to see something like that created in under minutes all while ripping off and discrediting the works it derives from.
but also there’s a market for this so of course this the turn things are going to take. of course company X and brand Y want a quickly spun up series of pintrest boards or concept art for the latest ad campaign or make up line design. of course some horny bastard who doesn’t want to read 3 1000 page volumes of high furry fantasy novel series if he can just bust a nut in under a minute to boobs boobing boobily in the exact way he knows he wants.
but there has always been value in that insanely long novel series and in the super detailed final fantasy vii fanart. it was just not as profitable and that’s undervalued
and i feel crazy cuckoo angry because i feel this desperate need to make art, for everyone to spend a significant amount of their time, concerted effort into making art, destroying it, showing no one and making some more, and maybe this time sharing a bit of it with someone, then destroying it again
the barrier to entry to draw on a piece of paper sometimes feels like i’m choking on 14 saltines and i hate the creeping feeling of dread and guilt when i don’t enjoy a book 24% into it and have to decide if i DNF or ‘power through’ and i hate looking at my phone, i hate looking at my phone