Seeing Jupiter, Venus and Mars in the night sky as I walk to the train in feel like temperatures of 10F, all bundled up, so I can swim a quick 700 yards and sweat in the sauna at YMCA :~)
Was sobbing in a crazy way in the bathroom about to get ready for my shower this morning because of how Puppycat’s vet bills are going to financially devastate me, but then I caught the pump in my shoulders and was like… Queen Never Cry
Truly a slay for the culture of aesthetics that I seem to be unable to detangle myself from.
A cat having cancer is so crazy, like what ever do you meannnnnnn. All other bothers faded into the background as a result though. So funny how that works. A friend pisses me off < I think I’m getting fired from work < My little guy needs an expensive procedure… like, life is continuing, continuing.
...Totally unprepared for the first day of work this week, Tuesday.
Yesterday I went to a hella awkward party, truly a humbling experience. I picked up my 12ml waterbottle from REI and then watched Sonic 3. I was kinda bored, but now my TikTok algo keeps showing me sonadow and, I literally… literally all I wanna do is read my gay manga and sleep for a few days.
I skipped the gym today because I keep doing shoulder presses on non-push days and I think I’d perish if I hit delts twice in a row. I think I need to hit more cardio these days anyway. The air quality is getting worse, I probably am allergic to a handful of things, and going from one side of the Time Sq 42nd st station to the other for volleyball regularly with my mask on cannot be my warm up.
...Everyone’s new year’s resolutions are so cool. I love hearing them. I have things I want to do, but that’s always the case. Doesn’t feel very different. I’m loving everything the way it is right now. I’m enjoying loving it.
I love the cold ! I love how when I go outside and it’s so windy and chilly, but I’m warm because I’m wearing thermals and a windbreaker and I love how my cheeks feel like they’re frozen over, because probably my face is trying so hard to send blood up there to warm it up. I love how I can’t walk very fast anyway because of the shoes I wear these days, but also because all the layers I’m wearing don’t allow me full range of motion anyway so I just waddle and take my time crossing distances. It has to get done, I have to get groceries, I have to walk to the train, I gotta go see my friends, and I get to be all bundled up and leave like a few minutes earlier to make the journey.
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