- i miss the modells by ditmars !!!
- wearing evangelion merch as a protective shield against skeptical christians in the area
- GOD’S IN HIS HEAVEN. ALL’S RIGHT WITH THE WORLD.
- wondering what the difference is between the punisher symbol with the american flag and then the regular one. both kinda suck, i think
- i’m on the dsny scheduled pick up site every week, juuuuust to be sure
- i miss dancing ! not like what i do now, but before covid and before i thought about what i looked like while dancing
john coltrane’s lush life is playing on 89.9 fm (ok fine, wkcr) right now
my windows are open and it’s cooler today and also a lil breezy so the sheer curtains are billowing gently. these windows are east facing (mostly) so when the sun sets it feels like a surprise every time because it’s so quick
ugh, i still can’t believe i lost to my opponent today (both of us ~3.75 ntrp) >:( aside from the mental game jostling about, so many of the points i lost were because of double faults and other unforced errors. insane how tennis is a pretty easy barometer to check where i’m at both physically and mentally. but maybe that’s just any physical activity that requires some thinking but make it competitive.
...bro i am becoming so increasingly worried about playing this 4.5 lv player today that ln i had a dream that i was doing everything in my power to avoid this match which is insane bc, damn, am i really that afraid to lose? and also, damn, why am i so convinced that i’m going to lose in the first place???
anyway the dream also was about this rando girl from middle school who had a similar name to the 4.5 lv opponent. big O_o moment
...finished reading the left hand of darkness last night, and i’m inconsolable