undid months of distance from garbage accounts that stressed me out, enabled unbecoming behavior, and generally were empty, hollow, pits of tired ass echos by logging into all of them and catching up at lightning speed within the span of 40 mins and took, like, 10000000 pts of psychic damage 😎😎😎
- i miss the modells by ditmars !!!
- wearing evangelion merch as a protective shield against skeptical christians in the area
- GOD’S IN HIS HEAVEN. ALL’S RIGHT WITH THE WORLD.
- wondering what the difference is between the punisher symbol with the american flag and then the regular one. both kinda suck, i think
- i’m on the dsny scheduled pick up site every week, juuuuust to be sure
- i miss dancing ! not like what i do now, but before covid and before i thought about what i looked like while dancing
john coltrane’s lush life is playing on 89.9 fm (ok fine, wkcr) right now
my windows are open and it’s cooler today and also a lil breezy so the sheer curtains are billowing gently. these windows are east facing (mostly) so when the sun sets it feels like a surprise every time because it’s so quick
ugh, i still can’t believe i lost to my opponent today (both of us ~3.75 ntrp) >:( aside from the mental game jostling about, so many of the points i lost were because of double faults and other unforced errors. insane how tennis is a pretty easy barometer to check where i’m at both physically and mentally. but maybe that’s just any physical activity that requires some thinking but make it competitive.
...bro i am becoming so increasingly worried about playing this 4.5 lv player today that ln i had a dream that i was doing everything in my power to avoid this match which is insane bc, damn, am i really that afraid to lose? and also, damn, why am i so convinced that i’m going to lose in the first place???
anyway the dream also was about this rando girl from middle school who had a similar name to the 4.5 lv opponent. big O_o moment
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